What to do today?

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Do you every get so overwhelmed by everything you have to do you just don’t feel like doing anything? I’m paralysed by indecision. There are so many things I have to/want/should do and also taking into account the wishes of all those around me and I quite often end up doing nothing.

It only took three days of back to normal routine when the kids returned to school for my body to starting complaining and the overwhelming fatigue to return. I can have all the best intentions in the world but when this happens it all goes out the window.

Over the holidays I was able to do little things each morning – taking the time to open all the windows and blinds, put some incense and essential oils on. You’d be surprised how much time this takes up. Now we’re back to the every minute of the day is accounted for lifestyle. I laugh (figuratively – really I get quite annoyed) when people say “Just take some time out for yourself”, or “it won’t take long, just do….”.

You also know the things you are supposed to do like get up at 5am so I can go for a walk/ride/yoga session but I’m usually so tired and drained from the day before that playing on my phone before I get up feels like the only me time in the world. I try it the other way, before I go to sleep at night,  but I’m only on it 5 minutes and the phone falls to the floor with a crash startling me awake.

The well wishing people would say go to bed earlier. I’m already going to bed straight after I finally wrangle the kids into theirs! On a good night I might get an hour to myself to vegetate in front of the TV but that is usually in tandem with paying bills, signing school/activity forms, researching or catching up on the million emails and scheduling into my calendar camps, volunteering days, and any other extra curricular activities coming up. If it’s not in my calendar, it doesn’t happen.

I know I’m not the only one. Hats off to all the mothers out there just surviving through each day while the years fly by. This is all the wonderful journey of Motherhood (apparently) but I would just like to have some time to actually spend with my kids and not be so exhausted that I just can’t wait for them to finally go to sleep!

Then there’s the ‘advice’, just let all the other stuff go and enjoy your kids while they are young. Ha! If I let stuff go (like I have this afternoon to write this article) it snowballs until it is actually worse. I would have been better off not having ‘time to myself’ because I’m the one who pays later.

I would love to visit friends and relatives and just hang out more, spend quality time with my kids, get out and live life.  However this will take up one of the two days a week I have to squeeze my life into and means that I will have to go without my preparation for the week that helps me stay on top of things.

So I just keep plodding away, trying to implement whatever new strategy the ‘experts’ recommend knowing I’m doing the best I possibly can with the resources I have.

To all the other Mothers – keep on surviving! To all the well-wishers and advice givers – instead of giving unsolicited advice ask ‘What can I do that will help you?’ and don’t judge based on what they ask you to do. It will be important for them even if it doesn’t seem that way to you.

Well after that rant I’m off to bake a chook to feed me for the next few days, make my kids dinner, bake my treats for the week, bake cupcakes for the kids to take to school for when other kids bring in birthday cakes, play Rummikub with my girl and fuck only knows how many other things!

And can someone visit me for a change so I don’t have to go through the whole rigmarole that leaving the house entails?!

 

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Mast Cells Don’t Go Crazy for No Reason! 5 Things You Must Address if You Have Acquired Mast Cell Activation Disorder

This is a great starter article for those delving down further into histamine and inflammation. I wish I could get my head around this stuff and come up with a treatment plan! If anyone knows a professional in Brisbane who can put all these pieces together for me that would be fantastic!

Back to Baking

After a few weeks of not having proper dinners every night I’ve spent the day baking and cooking meals for the rest of the week. After work I am flat out keeping my eyes open let alone make dinner (always from scratch as I don’t have the option of dinners from a packet or can). Team that with having to get the girls showered and ready for school the next day and into bed at a decent hour I really miss when I don’t have something to just heat up.

Last week they ate so many crumbed fish fillets and chicken nuggets that we went through all the packets I had stocked up on when they were on special (Gluten free is very expensive!!!). Now our immune systems are tanking as well so it was past time I made something healthy. There probably won’t be too much time for this over the next couple of weeks as we are having to move house in the next 40 days so my weekends are going to be busy packing.

So I started out the morning making my Yucky biscuits. I tried to mix it up for a bit more fibre and added a teaspoon of psyllium husk – just a tip, don’t do that, it makes too much of a difference to the texture.

Then it was time to make chocolate cupcakes for the party my daughter was going to in the afternoon – I always like to make sure they have an alternative at parties so they don’t feel like they are missing out too much. Quick and easy is the Orgran chocolate cake mix baked as patty cakes with some chocolate buttercream icing. I’ve also found some gluten free, natural colours, hundreds and thousands to dress them up a bit.

Next up was my tea cake for the week. I’ve been mixing it up lately with a sprinkling of cinnamon sugar on top before I bake it. Sometimes I can handle it but other times it makes me a bit nauseous but it’s yummy!!

While this was going on I had some chicken bones on the boil, making a stock to get some goodness into the family. I let it simmer most of the day and it had carrot, celery, onion, leek, garlic and ginger to give it some flavour. This then became the base for the Chicken Chow Mein and Chicken soup I made after we came back from the birthday party.

Dinner was Porcupines with Mashed Potato for hubby and the girls and I roasted two chooks with choko, potato and purple sweet potato for my dinners for the rest of the week.


Whew! Tired now. Going to bed. Good night!

Throw Together Dinner 

Tonight’s throw together brought to you by DD10!

I haven’t been well this week and at the hospital all day today (nothing serious) so the kids were thrilled when I said they could make french toast for dinner and absolutely astounded when I agreed to their request for chocolate French toast! I think they then realised how unwell Mum is. 

So I needed more than sugar for dinner so I chucked some sweet potato and chicken on one slice with a little bit salt, side by side with the one maple syrup 😉

 

French Toast with Maple Syrup

  

Sweet Potato & Chicken French Toast

 

Apple Pie

Apple Pie

Hubby’s favourite dessert is apple pie so for his birthday I made an everything free apple pie, custard and ice cream. (Sorry to the Failsafe people it is moderate to high Sals).
It was categorised as a baking fail as the pastry was too crumbly and hard. I just used an old fashioned short crust pastry from my ancient cookbook. It really needs gluten to hold it together I think so you could play with Xantham or Guar Gum to replace it. I tend not to use these too much as they don’t sit well with me. Please feel free to comment if you have any tips to improve this.
I think I used nearly 2kg of apples as my pie dish is pretty huge. I first did 1kg but it was nowhere near enough. As with all my recipes they are not perfect and sometimes need a bit of a play.

Apple Pie

  • 1.5-2kg Apples stewed in a little filtered water with 1t cinnamon (omit cinnamon to reduce Sals but keep it in if you can). I have included a step by step pic for making the pastry from my cookbook if it helps.

Double quantity of short crust pastry

  • 4c GF SR Flour
  • 250g Nuttlex (ghee, butter if not DF)
  • 4T Cold water
  • Pinch salt
  1. Sift flour and salt into a BIG bowl. Cut the nuttlex in cubes and rub them into the flour.Method
  2. Add the water a bit at a time and mix through with a butter knife. (I actually used the water from the apples so this could have been some of the problem). It should be just wet enough to pull it together into a dough.
  3. Lightly kneed the dough on a floured board. The trick with pastry is to not play with it too much.
  4. Divide the dough in two – one for the base and a one for the lid
  5. Roll out the dough using firm quick strokes. As it is GF it will be really crumbly so take care!
  6. I roll the dough out on baking paper dusted with a bit of flour. This makes it easier to flip the dough into the pie dish.
  7. Place the base in the pie dish. Add stewed apples and put on the lid.
  8. Using a fork (or just your fingers) press the edges of the lid into the base. It doesn’t work as well with GF pastry as with normal wheat based pastry so just do your best.
  9. Brush the top of the pie with a bit of egg in milk (rice, almond, whatever you drink). If you can’t have egg just use the milk.
  10. Bake in a moderate oven for 20-30 mins.

Serve with Orgran custard and dairy free ice cream.

Apple Pie, Custard, Ice CreamOrgran Custard

Made My Day!

I received something this morning that absolutely changed my day for the better!

I’ve been absolutely hounded by the Black Dog lately. Not up to doing very much at all but existing through my daily grind. I’ve had a lot of theories on causes and thought about writing a post about those but this morning I was given something better.

For those with chemical and salicylate sensitivity you will understand that I can’t use commercial soaps or body washes due to the chemical crap and perfumes they put in them. However I have a wonderful friend who started soap making and she was good enough to teach me how to make a low chemical soap.

I love this soap! It doesn’t lather the same way ‘normal’ soap does but it has enough of a lather that I can even shave with it (because of course I can’t handle shaving creams).

I find when you make things yourself from scratch you gain an appreciation for the entire process and the end product becomes more precious. My kids will attest to this from the lecture they get when they waste food I have made for them! So my soap is precious to me.

Last Christmas I gave all the ladies in my office a bar of my soap. I told them a bit about it, explaining that is was only slightly scented with essential oils because of my issues and that it is one of the few soaps my daughter has used without an eczema flare up.

One of the ladies had her Granddaughter try it. Her Granddaughter has severe eczema and cannot use commercial soap either. The initial bar soon ran out and as it had been so successful with her eczema I gave them a few more bars.
This morning my colleague told me how excited her Granddaughter was having her very own soap that she could actually use! She kept lathering herself up, proud that she could use a bar of soap. This was enough to lift my day and then my colleague presented me with this card.


That made my day! So Thank you Tahlia! ❤️

So Many Posts In Mind, So Little Time

Work and school are still taking their toll. I’ve had so many ideas for posts but lacking the time and motivation to write. My depression is at an all time high (or is that low?) so I find myself mindlessly surfing Facebook instead of doing something productive.

I have a feeling we all need to up our zinc as after a period of going well we’re all now showing signs of immune systems not coping. From a chest and ear infection, constant colds or the feeling of always being on the edge of coming down with a cold, to recurrent staph infections and a really vigorous wart virus.

Behaviour is also taking a turn for the worse with unusual crying breakdowns from one and defiant, angry behaviour from the other – and that’s just the kids. The adults are not coping much better.

And all this has happened as I have tried to significantly cut down visits to the many professionals that make up our support team in an attempt to save for a house and get us out of the mould ridden rental we are currently in.

So what to do next? I have no idea. I’ve been at this long enough that I should be able to work it out myself without all the professionals but my mind just keeps jumping from topic to topic. Work on the cause of the issue is my mantra but which issue do I start with? And then it all seems to hard.

For myself, I am focusing on ‘liberalisation’. This is a methodology to get Salicylates and Amines back in. You start with a small amount you can tolerate and then increasing every three days until you can have it every day, then significantly increase the quantity. I’ve figured this is a good place to start as most of my problem is diet and without Salicylates and Amines I’m finding it extremely difficult to try any of the healing protocols such as GAPs, Paleo, Low Sugar, No Grains etc

For the girls I’m feeling a little remiss as I’m not really doing much for them at the moment. I’m avoiding their OT and Psych sessions as long as I can but I don’t think I can avoid the Bioressonance therapy for too much longer as I’m worried about them regressing. There has been so much chemical spraying with the freak out about Zika virus and I’m pretty sure we’ve all got parasites back again.

So with all this rattling around in my head no wonder I have been implementing avoidance strategies! Enough with the pity party, below are photos of all the future posts I have in mind. Let me know if there are any in particular that you would like to see first as I’m sure it will take me a little while to get through all of them.